媽媽與女裝孝子 03 - Page 7

姐姐不解釋一下嗎?而且姐姐 明明最討厭我進你房間,怎麼 自己就偷跑來我這呢?

Sister, don’t you explain? And Sister, I hate me the most about entering your room, why did you sneak up on me?

青春期男性的特徵開始顯現後令我噁心不已

The characteristics of adolescent men began to appear and made me feel disgusted

我好羨慕姐姐漂亮 的摸樣…

I envy my sister for her beautiful appearance...

女孩子總是乾淨又 香香甜甜的:

Girls are always clean and sweet:

好難扣…

Very difficult to deduct...

我按捺不住好奇, 趁姐姐出門時跑到 她房間用化妝品, 原來女孩子的東西 是這麼的美好!

I couldn't help but feel curious and ran to her room to use cosmetics when my sister went out. It turned out that the girl's things were so beautiful!

有過一次後便一發不可收拾,光是化妝品已經滿足 不了我,我想要徹底打扮成女孩的模樣,想要擁有 女性的身體、外貌,我多希望自己生下來就是女孩 子。我也想過和家人坦白,我以為他們能理解我的 矛盾和不安…

After one time, I was out of control. Cosmetics alone could not satisfy me. I wanted to dress up like a girl completely and have a female body and appearance. I wish I was born to be a girl. I also thought of confessing to my family, and I thought they could understand my contradictions and anxiety...

但是被姐姐發現後,我才知 道自己的想法多天真。

But after my sister discovered it, I realized how naive my thoughts were.

我清楚地記得姐姐說我 噁心、不正常,甚至喊 來媽媽一起辱罵我,彷 彿我犯了什麼殺人放火 的滔天大罪,自那以 後,我在姐姐和媽媽眼 裡再也沒見過一絲溫 柔,只有滿滿的厭惡和 失望。

I clearly remember my sister saying that I was disgusting and abnormal, and even called my mother to insult me, as if I had committed a heinous crime of murder and setting fire. Since then, I have never seen a trace of tenderness in my sister and mother's eyes, only full of disgust and disappointment.